The House on the Left

Hmm ... yesterday managed to catch a show title "the house on the Left"

hmm okie this time round... I really admitted that I am growing old.... coz last time when I watch such bloody movies....horror movies..... ar.... I was not even blinked or scared.... omg!! yesterday that show was a killer to my tummy.....

hmm or shld i put in this way.... when you read the title.... probably you have guess what kind of show you would be watching.....and in the end you would be fully prepared for it....... but not yesterday that movie....

this movie has yet show in Singapore..... well.... not sure which cat. this movie would be in.... apparently in Malaysia.... it is rated as 18PL ...... well I shld not write abt the movie..... coz this is not a movie review ^^

well I would say after watching this movie..... anyway this movie is a re-make movie which first shown in 1972....... this movie indicated a key point to the audience..... hahaha not too sure whether this is director's main key point >.<

anyway after watching this show.... it brought sense to me........ normal human beings are capable of doing alot of things including a weak young lady.... powerless in every situation....... yet for survival .......even the little lady is able to fight her way thru despite all the pain, shame...... all she wanna is to survived and be with her loved ones...

yes indeed ...... to be with our loved ones is crucial..... and almost critical to me...... it did set me thinking...... if I am the one who faced such harsh situation...... would I be able to fight like the young lady and fought my way thru juz to stay alive for my loved ones....... never thought it ..... lol....but after watching this show...... it does indicate 1 thing to me..... I need to spend more time with my loved ones and creating memories with them..... as memories would be the key to memorial of one.......

Prone to Injuries...

sigh.... not the first time... but I juz simply too clumsy haha....

well this time round even better.... used to injured my left ankle when i was around 12.... it was my first time to suffer in pain yet I treated it as nothing... ar yet endured the pain.... I remembered what my parents said, what my teachers said before... if you can endure thru the pain... you could endure thru your life....

er well.... it is true to certain extend... but I think such pain...shld not be endure thru.... haha coz it is an injury.... it would be best to see consult a doctor asap... and not leaving your poor ankle in pain... well like I did... so.... sigh... by the time I went to consult a doctor... my doctor said to me..... I had damage my ankle so badly that it could not recover well and would not recover fully.....so my left ankle is more prone to spraining.... haha what a crap you may think.... well of coz if you walk properly then it shld be alright... but.... hehe I have tendency to walk without looking..... faint.... haha my weakness but I would try to overcome it de....

anyway last friday I sprained my right ankle during BBQ....lucky thing my friend was there to send me home.... sigh if not think I cannot reach home early and need to drag my poor ankle back home....

so went to see doctor on sat morning... haha my doctor told me... your left ankle also injured!!! faint... that's means both of my ankles need to be wrapped!! then how!! my sis's bday on that day.... and we are celebrating for her.... haha juz go ahead haha what a funny thing...to walk super slowly like old grannies in their 100's hahaha.... and lucky even better... haha... I went to watch TRANSFORMERS!!!

haha but not too bad lah.... after which I went back home in 1 whole piece.... ^^ but right now suffered from sore pain from ankles... for walking too much

haha the best is to rest if you are need it and don't push it too hard and suffer in the future...

Unpredictable....

alot of things in life are unpredictable.... it happens when it is least expected.... and at times the events are so hurting yet willingly to go thru the events.... coz you know that the events are part and parcel of life......

at times... pple would think that it would be crazy to go thru the pain... and would even question is it worth the pain or is it worth the tears? I used to think in this manner... I could not understand why some pple are willing to go thru the struggle... yet ... lately... I began to see the light... and slowly begin to understand what others are going through....

Dreams.... goals.... whatever I used to desire... I have dropped it along my years of working... I've never desired to obtain those again.... yet I faced with a certain event.... which push me to re-think... shld I have the willpower to move forward again and re-find my true self? Would I be able to get my desired happiness?

I would say... thru out my years of living....I'm always been blessed by God and been loved by so many pple.... even now I'm truly blessed.... and I would say I have no regrets to live till this age...but I'm a greedy person whom tend to desire more out of the normal...this is something I need to learn... learning to let go....learning to desire less....learning to take things more lightly....maybe then I would live a much better life than now.... maybe learning to let go means learning to love...... at times holding too tightly would means causing pain to self and others...

I do not have much time now... I do not have much time to learn these.... I need to accept all these and learn it now before it gets too late.....And wish that after all these I would be a stronger person to handle events that might shake my world...rock my work or crush my world.... I'm working on it now...though I have to swallow down all my tears... I have to make it thru.... Crying alone is my only solution and console to myself...yet now I could not cry... and I cannot cry...coz crying is only means escaping from the pain temporary.... I would like to stop crying...and promise myself I would try my best not to cry in public again...never cry in front of others....crying is my only comfort....and getting out of my comfort zone is tough yet I still need to do it.....

hOliDays >.<

finally ^^ Holidays are here.... long waited break....

hmmm come to think of it.... my job does give me a break when i needed.... so though I met with challenges... I think it is worth the effort...coz I get to see my kids grow

anyway... this year... sigh I don't have much time to rest anyway.... coz I was given another job ^^ haha it is okie... well juz take it with a pinch of salt... and treat this as a different way to spend my holidays.... haha it is good for me ^^ coz at times... given too much a break.... I would be bored to death... haha not sure what can I do next before the school term starts.... and similar to the youngsters... would think why why the school term start without a blink

haha I guess this is human nature ^^ anyway would be using this holiday of mine to create more great memories and enjoyable moments.....

Thank You~

Hmmm ar...today is my Bday ^^

and seriously~ never I would thought that I would be celebrating my Bday in such special and sweet moments ~

well on thursday ~ a few of my scouts (including my cousin) celebrated my Bday in school ^^ and bought me gifts^^ haha seriously I did not expect that to happen~ and when they mentioned that they need to see me urgently I thought there's something important!! and who knows it turned out to be a pleasant surprise ^^ they bought cake and gifts for me~ thanks girls ^^ and thanks to 1T1 girls too ^^ thanks for the gift ^^

haha next is yesterday 2nd May ~ lol ... my graduated student (whom also my scout ~ Christine) msged me whether I'm free to meet her for dinner ^^ it has been so long I went out with her...and she told she would get another girl (JiaYing) along for dinner... of coz I would meet both of them ^^ I really missed them ^^ so I went ahead and met them ^^.... ar we travelled to Central and walked to look for clothes ^^.... haha who knows!! out of the sudden... 1 familiar voice dropped the bomb!! lol it is my SON aka WeeTiong ^^ haha then went out to see... haha I saw my another SON aka YuXuan and my Brother aka Marcus ^^ haha it was a wonderful surprise ^^ really very happy to see them ^^ haha we went for dinner then head down for K box....^^ really very happy to see all them ^^

then another great surprise came by to me ..... ~ WeeKeong and Garbiel my ventures ^^... lol out of the sudden~ Garbiel Msg me ...and I thought Sherlyn needed the information fast!! so I rushed back home to find the information for her.... who knows!! when Garbiel msg me to open my house door~ I found a gift lying outside the door!! wah ^^ super cutie!! it is pluto!! haha then 2 of them came out to wish me happy Bday ^^ it was great to see them too.... esp they have juz started lesson in poly....

I'm greatly touched by their gestures.... never thought that I would enjoyed my Bday in this manner.... seriously I was really very happy^^

thanks pple ^^ I would work hard this year and may my wish come true ^^

^^ happiness... would it continue to stay or....

hmm.... today is Sports Day ^^

and I'm glad to see abt 12~13 students from my class... oh well.... out of 33.. I have 12~13... others may think that I'm mad to think that I'm glad...

but truly I'm really happy that things turn out fine and well....well I'm glad to see most of my students.... right now really truly worried abt their upcoming exams...

well vinoth... He told me that he does not really appreciate for the fact that I broke down and cried for such a stupid reason....but he's appreicated my concern towards him ^^ well it made my day ^^ truly felt very happy abt that...

and I muz admitted that I'm dead worried abt all my students....and not for my sake.... yet for theirs.... though some may think that I'm lying... it is okie for them to think in this way...

I'm happy if they managed to pass their exams...and found their pathway to their future ^^

and that would the kind of happiness I'm seeking for ...

another kind of happiness filled me up ^^......

haha well it was last sat ^^... I went out with my grp of friends.... ar.... finally I get to see them especially Chaveil ^^ hahaha... what crazy time we had.... haha though it was up till evening.... I managed to speak to most of them ^^ haha really really enjoyed that ^^ and hope to see them soon.....er provided I can finished marking my upcoming exam papers ^^

I'm wishing for my happiness to continue to stay with me.....

Movie- Departures

Hmm last sunday, my friends and I decided to catch a film... name "Departures" ... initially I thought it was a film regarding air flights.... who knows... it was about pple working like the deathkeeper... they are a group of pple who help to clean the dead bodies and dressed them as beautiful as possible, before they are burned to ashes....

ah...interesting film I would say.... it gave pple many different views to think abt their lives... their values...

hahaha... another show which made me cried so much... that in the end I gave up using tissues... coz I think it would be a waste of tissues ^^ so I juz continued to cry and cry... crying...yes it did release part of my stress... and bring me back to life... it brings me back to this mother earth once again.... it makes me feel so good.....

I cried due to sadness.... especially when the living are grateful to them for helping their dead partners to look pretty before they truly end their lives.... and they are able to keep their beautiful looks in eternal memory.... ya indeed... it brought me back to my last look at my grandmother.... I regretted that I did not see her for the last time.... and I cried so hard coz in that film, others had the chance to see their dead partner for the last time...and it makes me realize that I never have that chance again... never ever see my grandmother again.... and this makes me feel so so sad... fill with sorrow... regrets....but what can I do now??

then when the last part of the film.... whereby the main lead found his dad....and dead... he was willing to clean his father...though he hated his father for leaving him and his mother for another women for the past 30 years... he kept cleaning... clean his face....and slowly it brought back the fond memories...and his memory of his father.... and that is when I broke down.... I truly broke down.... the kind of love that the son held for his father was strong and hid deep down in his heart... the intense love that he had... made me realize that I was not that strong.... nope I was not a strong person who can accept this.... but yet with this realization I would try to be stronger and worked towards creating a better living place for my family...and love them more than ever... this film brings back the human part of me....a part which was lost during the midst of my studies...yet it does bring back the anxiety part of me too.... now i am very worried abt tons of things....sigh...

but i would strongly recommend this film... it was worth watching ^^