sigh....

ever wonder have the things that i am working on for so long have been affecting my whole life?? i never given a thought to it.... till lately....

and re-considering the things i am going to do in the near future... would it further affect my life?? i seriously have no confidence in it.. coz it is difficult to say.... i am worried yet not willing to give up to do the things i loved so much... would i be able to find the inner peace to get it done??

judging from the things i saw.... i heard.... i guess i have to move on and fast.... time to let it go

letting my anxiety get it to me.... so be it... at least i have another direction i can move on.....

allow me to pray hard that i can find my own place, my directions, my purpose in life fast

District 9

hmmm it has been a long time since I've written anything on my blog....

well many things have changed and shifted ^^ for the better or worst... this is something that no one knows..... till the day comes... so juz get on with living and be happy.....

hmmm welll went to watch DISTRICT 9 .... juz before the show was about to be removed from screening...

seriously.... I don't really wish to watch this show at the initial stage.... then went online to see the reviews.... and of coz my guy wanna to watch the show... so as his girl.... I went ahead to watch that show....

well... to my surprise.... though I did not know who are those artistes...the show was worth watching... alot of discussion points found in this show.... aliens found in mother earth...... and they had been living in this planet named EARTH for 2 decades....

anyway I would not comment on the story... yet on what I have gotta from the show.. racial discrimination.... hahaha.. ya of coz this is the main component of the movie!!.....

coz aliens are considered as other races.....and thru the flim... the producers wanna us to understand that racial discrimination.... and other sorts of discrimination....are creating massive problems..... well these are the harsh facts of life.... yet how many pple would agree upon and act on it... with so many world crisis at hand.... would pple be able to understand the need to leave in peaceful envt?

tough.... i guess... coz most of the pple are blinded by the immediate/ present situation.... and would not be able to take a step back to reflect what has happened along the way... not many pple are able to that... and it is very saddening....

The House on the Left

Hmm ... yesterday managed to catch a show title "the house on the Left"

hmm okie this time round... I really admitted that I am growing old.... coz last time when I watch such bloody movies....horror movies..... ar.... I was not even blinked or scared.... omg!! yesterday that show was a killer to my tummy.....

hmm or shld i put in this way.... when you read the title.... probably you have guess what kind of show you would be watching.....and in the end you would be fully prepared for it....... but not yesterday that movie....

this movie has yet show in Singapore..... well.... not sure which cat. this movie would be in.... apparently in Malaysia.... it is rated as 18PL ...... well I shld not write abt the movie..... coz this is not a movie review ^^

well I would say after watching this movie..... anyway this movie is a re-make movie which first shown in 1972....... this movie indicated a key point to the audience..... hahaha not too sure whether this is director's main key point >.<

anyway after watching this show.... it brought sense to me........ normal human beings are capable of doing alot of things including a weak young lady.... powerless in every situation....... yet for survival .......even the little lady is able to fight her way thru despite all the pain, shame...... all she wanna is to survived and be with her loved ones...

yes indeed ...... to be with our loved ones is crucial..... and almost critical to me...... it did set me thinking...... if I am the one who faced such harsh situation...... would I be able to fight like the young lady and fought my way thru juz to stay alive for my loved ones....... never thought it ..... lol....but after watching this show...... it does indicate 1 thing to me..... I need to spend more time with my loved ones and creating memories with them..... as memories would be the key to memorial of one.......

Prone to Injuries...

sigh.... not the first time... but I juz simply too clumsy haha....

well this time round even better.... used to injured my left ankle when i was around 12.... it was my first time to suffer in pain yet I treated it as nothing... ar yet endured the pain.... I remembered what my parents said, what my teachers said before... if you can endure thru the pain... you could endure thru your life....

er well.... it is true to certain extend... but I think such pain...shld not be endure thru.... haha coz it is an injury.... it would be best to see consult a doctor asap... and not leaving your poor ankle in pain... well like I did... so.... sigh... by the time I went to consult a doctor... my doctor said to me..... I had damage my ankle so badly that it could not recover well and would not recover fully.....so my left ankle is more prone to spraining.... haha what a crap you may think.... well of coz if you walk properly then it shld be alright... but.... hehe I have tendency to walk without looking..... faint.... haha my weakness but I would try to overcome it de....

anyway last friday I sprained my right ankle during BBQ....lucky thing my friend was there to send me home.... sigh if not think I cannot reach home early and need to drag my poor ankle back home....

so went to see doctor on sat morning... haha my doctor told me... your left ankle also injured!!! faint... that's means both of my ankles need to be wrapped!! then how!! my sis's bday on that day.... and we are celebrating for her.... haha juz go ahead haha what a funny thing...to walk super slowly like old grannies in their 100's hahaha.... and lucky even better... haha... I went to watch TRANSFORMERS!!!

haha but not too bad lah.... after which I went back home in 1 whole piece.... ^^ but right now suffered from sore pain from ankles... for walking too much

haha the best is to rest if you are need it and don't push it too hard and suffer in the future...

Unpredictable....

alot of things in life are unpredictable.... it happens when it is least expected.... and at times the events are so hurting yet willingly to go thru the events.... coz you know that the events are part and parcel of life......

at times... pple would think that it would be crazy to go thru the pain... and would even question is it worth the pain or is it worth the tears? I used to think in this manner... I could not understand why some pple are willing to go thru the struggle... yet ... lately... I began to see the light... and slowly begin to understand what others are going through....

Dreams.... goals.... whatever I used to desire... I have dropped it along my years of working... I've never desired to obtain those again.... yet I faced with a certain event.... which push me to re-think... shld I have the willpower to move forward again and re-find my true self? Would I be able to get my desired happiness?

I would say... thru out my years of living....I'm always been blessed by God and been loved by so many pple.... even now I'm truly blessed.... and I would say I have no regrets to live till this age...but I'm a greedy person whom tend to desire more out of the normal...this is something I need to learn... learning to let go....learning to desire less....learning to take things more lightly....maybe then I would live a much better life than now.... maybe learning to let go means learning to love...... at times holding too tightly would means causing pain to self and others...

I do not have much time now... I do not have much time to learn these.... I need to accept all these and learn it now before it gets too late.....And wish that after all these I would be a stronger person to handle events that might shake my world...rock my work or crush my world.... I'm working on it now...though I have to swallow down all my tears... I have to make it thru.... Crying alone is my only solution and console to myself...yet now I could not cry... and I cannot cry...coz crying is only means escaping from the pain temporary.... I would like to stop crying...and promise myself I would try my best not to cry in public again...never cry in front of others....crying is my only comfort....and getting out of my comfort zone is tough yet I still need to do it.....

hOliDays >.<

finally ^^ Holidays are here.... long waited break....

hmmm come to think of it.... my job does give me a break when i needed.... so though I met with challenges... I think it is worth the effort...coz I get to see my kids grow

anyway... this year... sigh I don't have much time to rest anyway.... coz I was given another job ^^ haha it is okie... well juz take it with a pinch of salt... and treat this as a different way to spend my holidays.... haha it is good for me ^^ coz at times... given too much a break.... I would be bored to death... haha not sure what can I do next before the school term starts.... and similar to the youngsters... would think why why the school term start without a blink

haha I guess this is human nature ^^ anyway would be using this holiday of mine to create more great memories and enjoyable moments.....

Thank You~

Hmmm ar...today is my Bday ^^

and seriously~ never I would thought that I would be celebrating my Bday in such special and sweet moments ~

well on thursday ~ a few of my scouts (including my cousin) celebrated my Bday in school ^^ and bought me gifts^^ haha seriously I did not expect that to happen~ and when they mentioned that they need to see me urgently I thought there's something important!! and who knows it turned out to be a pleasant surprise ^^ they bought cake and gifts for me~ thanks girls ^^ and thanks to 1T1 girls too ^^ thanks for the gift ^^

haha next is yesterday 2nd May ~ lol ... my graduated student (whom also my scout ~ Christine) msged me whether I'm free to meet her for dinner ^^ it has been so long I went out with her...and she told she would get another girl (JiaYing) along for dinner... of coz I would meet both of them ^^ I really missed them ^^ so I went ahead and met them ^^.... ar we travelled to Central and walked to look for clothes ^^.... haha who knows!! out of the sudden... 1 familiar voice dropped the bomb!! lol it is my SON aka WeeTiong ^^ haha then went out to see... haha I saw my another SON aka YuXuan and my Brother aka Marcus ^^ haha it was a wonderful surprise ^^ really very happy to see them ^^ haha we went for dinner then head down for K box....^^ really very happy to see all them ^^

then another great surprise came by to me ..... ~ WeeKeong and Garbiel my ventures ^^... lol out of the sudden~ Garbiel Msg me ...and I thought Sherlyn needed the information fast!! so I rushed back home to find the information for her.... who knows!! when Garbiel msg me to open my house door~ I found a gift lying outside the door!! wah ^^ super cutie!! it is pluto!! haha then 2 of them came out to wish me happy Bday ^^ it was great to see them too.... esp they have juz started lesson in poly....

I'm greatly touched by their gestures.... never thought that I would enjoyed my Bday in this manner.... seriously I was really very happy^^

thanks pple ^^ I would work hard this year and may my wish come true ^^